So, I’ve been having trouble with things of late. I hadn’t realized the pressure I put on myself to find my purpose in this world and it is not wrong at all to work towards finding yourself and making meaning for your life. I just feel like we are trying to make strides too big that we often trip and fall.
I’m pretty sure a lot of you relate with me especially at this age. You try something and it’s not working for you or you feel you heart just isn’t there. The vibe is off, what you thought was your passion starts feeling like exhausting work and you don’t want to do it anymore.
I’ve not been writing of late because of so many reasons and mainly because it started feeling like a strain and I started filling my head with self-doubt. That is what the brain does, it says away from discomfort. It is designed to cushion you against discomfort. So, when something presents a challenge a simple as waking up and you’ll think of a hundred and one reasons not to wake up. When you stay in bed for five seconds after your alarm you start flooding yourself with reasons not to wake up.
Too often we feed the self-doubt and it stops us from doing more meaningful things with our time. You have many good ideas but before you even start working on them you have convinced yourself that you can’t or you are not well qualified or you don’t have the amount of money needed. Or you start and you face challenges then you beat yourself up.
Listen somethings you will do will not work, business ventures will fail, you will drop courses or even out of college but that is just part of the process. I need you to remember that nothing that has happened to you is in vain, especially the hard times and challenges. Those days you swear are one of the top ten bad days of your entire life. Those days play part in who you are going to be or what is in store in the future.
As much as it is ugly it paves way for the bright morning dawns that we want to see with our loved ones and document on our phones.
So, take a leap of faith you will either get a lesson, experience or the greatest decision of your entire life.
After all isn’t the 20’s time to make those mistakes and learn our way through life.
Thanks for reading loves.